If I Die Tonight

If I died tonight,
Would anyone care?
Because as far as I can see,
No ones even aware,

Sure they know Im a cutter,
And once, they did care,
They even stopped me from committing suicide,
But I know those thoughts just arent there,

My dad called me a psycho,
My sister calls me a freak,
My friends dont show the same interest they once did,
And inside Im so incredibly weak,

Im not going to lie to you,
They talk and ask, "Whats New?"
But can they just not see,
That soon my life might be through?

If I died tonight,
How long would it take to forget my name?
School, friends, family, and fun,
Ill just be another picture on the wall of shame,

If I died tonight,
Or maybe that "if" should be a "will,"
As I lay on the bathroom floor,
Blood from my wrists will continue to spill,

Would my dad still think Im a psycho?
Will my sister still call me a freak?
Will my friends completely lose interest?
Or would they stay up, unable to sleep?

Will I commit suicide,
If things keep getting worse?
How long will I be able to stand,
On lifes cruel course?

I keep sinking into the dark,
Alone more and more,
Still I do cut,
I cant even answer "what for?"

Ive become so very interested,
I keep staring at my wrists,
My mind keeps calling,
For that razorblades kiss,

How long can I keep this urge,
Down at bay?
A time will come when I will give in,
And suicide will come my way,

If I died tonight,
Would you even care?
Because as far as I can see,
You not even aware..

im sure that if you die ppl will remember you all your true friends will and im sure all your true friends care about you and again im sure that your true friends wont want to beleive it its gonna be too sad

thanks julien

hey im here for that arnt i one of your true friends

haha ya you are (i think)

well its not like im the one that can decide that the only person who can is you

techinaclly you do decide becasue its yer choice wether you want to be my friend or not

yeah hehe i think your right (as always) well then i say im one of your truest friends then

lmao
well i say yer right =]
you and britt and amber (you dont know her) and cayley and maby paul and ben and maby dave idk though and a bunch of other people i think are all my true friends =]

you got that right (even if i dont know all of them really good)

lol most of them are awsomenessness however some of them *cough* paul *cough* get on my nerves at times lol

lol most of them are awsomenessness however some of them *cough* paul *cough* get on my nerves at times lol

lol most of them are awsomenessness however some of them *cough* paul *cough* get on my nerves at times lol

lol most of them are awsomenessness however some of them *cough* paul *cough* get on my nerves at times lol

lol most of them are awsomenessness however some of them *cough* paul *cough* get on my nerves at times lol

lol

spammage mer!!!
love the poem btw
here ezmarus has a comment.

Ezmarus:
Hey, Mer, I just love your poems. They are reall deep and stuff. Sad, but, deep. I just really love them all!!!

O.O i only posted that once though!


haha thanks =]

yeah its weird sometimes i just post one time and like 3 or 4 of the same post appear its like if they multiply