Daddy You Promised Me You Wouldnt Leave

I'm trying to live life without regrets,
but then i think of you never the less,
I can't believe you left me,
Inside I'm screaming.

You mattered so much to me,
now my heart hurts,
and I feel dead every day,
on earth I want to stay.

I don't know if I can bare,
life's evil curse,
I'm slowly dying now,
its time to say good-bye.

It's good-night,
and all my problems do not subside,
Captivaited by an emotional twist,
I want to be in restful bliss.

You promise me since I was alive,
that you would never walk out,
you would never leave me behind.

But now your gone,
and not much of me is left,
I can't cope,
My progress decreaes.

I feel as if you left me in the pouring rain,
to rot and never live again,
those hurtful words you said,
a drunken man's words leaves a teenage heart dead.

The pain swallows me,
and eats me alive,
and I strive and I strive,
But I can't break free from all misery.

I need you daddy,
can't you see?

I don't act like you get the best of me,
But its true,
you do,
and it hurts so much.

I can't even begin to explain all my pain,
Some Dad you are,
pathetic.

You left me,
You hurt me,
You Killed me.

and thats NOT okay.

wow you surely went through loads of stuff and i think someone like me wouldnt have been able get through your mind is strong you know that? some ppl like me would have let go of life after all that but you, you managed to get through this and decided to get on with life instead of letting it go

i tried giving up
twice
but each time
it didnt work
i would give anything to be able to give up
but everytime i try it fails.

maybe it means you have to not give up even in the roughest of the situations

i give up
im dieing now
and theres nothing anyone can do abotu it
ben if you read this
im sorry

well mer i will die with you

O.O i didnt type that
god darn my mom!

what SHE worte that?

i guess so
i sure didnt!

weird

*sigh* now you see why i hate her so much

yeah it must be horrible to have a mom who wants your death

it is horrible

have you ever thought of having an adopting family

*sigh* to many times to count.

yeah cause that adopting family or something might love you more than that mom of yours

*sigh* idk.......

there is a 51% chance that they do like you better depends on what type of family you fall on