My Life.

So Many People
Think They've Got It Bad
But They Havent Tried My Life Yet
A Mom Is Supposed To Be There
Not Get High Every Night
And Calling You Worthless
Daddy, Daddy
Why Did You Hurt Me?
What Did I Do?
Was I Bad?
No.
Your Just An *Ass*
I *Fucking* Hate You!
Stay Out Of My Life!
My Brothers,
Think My Grandpa Is God.
If God Is A Rapist And A Stalker
Then They Are Right
My Poor Baby Sister,
She Doesnt Know
How Bad Things Will Get
When She Is Old Enough To Realize
That Nothing Is The Same
The Drugs Stop Working
The Blade Dulls
The Blood Stops Flowing
The Poems Turn Sour
Every Thought Is About Suicide
Every Dream Is Tortue
School Is A Nightmare
Getting Picked On Constantly Because Your Bi, Or Gay
This Isnt The Way It Should Be.
So Lets Go Back
To When We Were Kids
When All We Had To Do
Was Run Around Carelessly.
Well, Not For Me.
When I Was Little
I Had To Take Care Of Everyone.
If I Was Sick
Oh Well.
I Still Had To Take Care Of Them
If I Wanted Something
I Had To Get It Myself
I Was Forced To Grow Up To Fast.
Now Im Expected To Be The Oldest
And Always The Wisest.
I Dont Like Being This Way.
I Want To Be Normal!
I Want To Be Carefree
And I Want To Not Want To Die.
But Life Just Gets Me Sometimes.
Please Dont Let Me Fall Asleep Tonight.

So true... So very very true...

people gave me info about kansas and it sounds true wat u said its kinda sad

i know.
kansas sucks.
=[

not when jul ben and i are there

britt if you read this
teddy needs to come back alive!!!
i cant handle him being dead =[
its just to much pressure with everything else i have to go through.....
ugh.


and dave.
kansas sucks no matter who is here.
well maby not with ben here....lol

i know mer
but like i said
im not going to try to stop you anymore
because i know what its like to have someone close to you die