I Wish It Was Different.

This Is Probably My Saddest Poem I Have Ever Written. It Is About My Best Guy Friend In The Entire World. He Was More To Me Then Anyone. And He Killed Himself. Suicide Is Really Painful. Im Sorry...But I Think I Am Going To Commit Suicide. I Cant Survive Without Teddy. He Was Everything To Me. He Was My Happiness. He Was My Sanity Rock. He Kept Me From My Blade. No One Knew Him Like I Did. He Is Simply Amazing And I Would Do Anything To Have Him Back. Please, Dont Leave Me Teddy. I Wish I Was Awake To Answer Your Call! Dont Leave Me Like This! If You Die, I Die. Thats The End. If Your Sad, Im Sad. If your Happy, Im Happy. If Your Dead, Im Dead. I Promise You I Will Be There With You Always And Forever. Dont Forget That. Ever. Rest In Peace Teddy. I Wish It Was Different. There Arent Enough Words To Describe You.



I Wish It Was Different
I Wish You Were Still Here
I Wish I Had The Chance
To Tell You I Love You
To Tell You Im Sorry
That The World Is So Evil
And The Earth Is So Cruel.
I Wish I Had The Chance
To Make Everything Ok.
I Need To Feel Your Presence
Around Me Once More.
To Tell You How I Felt.
You Were My Best Friend.
Why Did This End?
Suicide Has A Chain Effect.
Now I Wish I Was Dead.
I Wish That This Could Change.
You Said You Loved Me Before You Did It...
And I Wasnt There To Answer Your Call
If Only This Desase
Hadnt Gotten The Best Of Me.
If Only I Was Able
To Keep Myself Awake.
Then I Could Have Stopped You
So If Your Reading This
I Just Want To Say
I Wish You Were Here
I Wish You Were Still Alive
Please, Let This Be A Cruel Joke.
Please Say You Didnt Leave Me
If I Dont Talk To You For A While.
It Will Be The End Of Me.
If You Are Truely Dead.
I Am To.
I Will Follow You In Death.
Please Dont Leave Me.
I Have To Much Stress Already.
I Dont Want You To Be Dead.
You Just Cant Be!
Please, Come Back Alive
Pop Out Of That Coffin
Come Back To Life!!
I Miss You Terribly!
Dont Hurt Me Like This!
You Are My Best Friend!
I Would Do Anything
Just To See You One Last Time
And Make You Laugh
And Make You Smile
And Make You Realize
Living Is Worth While!
If Only You Knew,
The Complete Truth...
I Wouldnt Be Crying
I Wouldnt Be Using My Blade
I Wouldnt Be Afraid
Of Everything Today.
So, If Your There
Please Come Back To Me.
Please Say You Didnt Leave.

i miss him so much...
ii talked to his mom....
and....he is dead.
not alive....
gone...
forever.....
and ever....
never again will i hear his voice.....
i wont see him ever again....
i need to talk to him just one last time.....
god teddy....your so stupid.

=(

britt i miss him so much.
i dont think i can handle him being dead.
i cant even go to my own myspace because i put his myspace on my top a while back....and now its not there.......
its just so hard.
you really have no idea.

=( i know mer
here get on vent and we all can talk to you and maybe you will feel better

i cant.
no mic.
im on the laptop not the big computer.

oh, ask if you can get on the big computer